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Closet Chronic Pain

My Journey to Find a Pain Doctor – Chronic Pain

Hi. I’m Kevin and I am a writer for

As I write this, I’m sitting on a couch, reclined, with my left leg crossed over my right so that my left thigh is completely off of the cushion. Why? Because I’m in tremendous pain and there’s not much I can do about it at the immediate moment.

“But Kevin, you obviously work for a pain clinic, why haven’t you sought out help?” you ask me hypothetically. Well, I’m embarrassed, and a little bit of a procrastinator. Part of me thinks that if I just hope that it will go away, it will. Or if I just wait it out, eventually it will fix itself. But it won’t, and eventually I’m going to have to bite the bullet and make an appointment.

I’ve spent months on this issue. It started with the occasional leg and thigh cramp, something I attributed to a low water intake or just too much time spent sitting at my desk. I upgraded my chair, but that didn’t really help. So to fix that, work on my posture a bit and try to lose some weight, I bought an adjustable standing desk. It wasn’t cheap, but now I can work either standing or sitting, which helps alleviate the pain in my leg, at least for short stretches of time. But even with that, I still find myself working from a couch to try to keep the pressure off the area.

Part of me is afraid of what the doctor will say. I suppose I’m like most men in that regard – too macho to admit they might have a flaw or too afraid of finding something severe is wrong with them. If it were my wife, she would’ve called. Me? Not so much.

I’m not a doctor, but I’m guessing it’s sciatica. I’ve written and/or edited enough documents about the subject to take an educated guess, but still, it’s just a hunch. I have no concrete data to back this up, and I won’t really know until I finally book an appointment.

I guess my point in all this is that you could be like me. Maybe you’ve been in pain for quite a while and you’re putting it off because of some silly reason. Whether it’s machismo or laziness, it’s not worth your time to keep putting it off indefinitely. I mean, who wants to live in pain forever? Not me, that’s for sure.

And with that, I’m off to schedule an appointment. Wish me luck.


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By | 2016-11-17T11:10:18-07:00 April 2nd, 2013|4 Comments

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    Kelli April 2, 2013 at 7:59 am - Reply

    You are smart to first turn to nutrition and exercise to seek relief. And you are also smart to suck it up and get yourself an appointment. MEN!
    (In all seriousness, hope you feel better, amigo!)

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    Drew April 2, 2013 at 8:35 am - Reply

    Don’t be embarrassed… everyone is fighting their own hard battle…

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    brookec April 2, 2013 at 10:00 am - Reply

    I am not a man, but I am the same way. I grew up in a family where you take your vitamins, rest and get over it. To this day if I have an ache or pain I abide by the 3 day rule before I get help. [if after 3 days it hasnt gotten better at ALL…make an appointment]

    It took me a year of shoulder pain and a free chiropractic consultation to figure out my shoulder pain issues…. theres no time like the present to start.

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    Kristen April 2, 2013 at 11:12 am - Reply

    I ditto Drew! And, getting in a pool or hot tub at least 20 mins a day will take that pressure off your disc and relieve sciatica. (Speaking from first hand experience). 🙂 Also, PT and chiro will probably really help you.

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